Upon the Threshold of Dreams
For those who have dreamed a lifetime and back again.
For those who have has dreams shattered and hopes
Smashed, for those who never give up and those who have.
Looking out past the cloudy, musty pane,
Past the darkness of ignorance and bliss,
Beyond the printed word and criticism,
Into the coming of age.
Yearning to fly beyond the tar pits of time,
Breaking free of the painful limitations,
Striving for a newborn's cry,
Riding on the golden fingers of the sky.
Tired of the mechanical ruined world,
The gray print of shadows playing along the wall,
The clicking and clanking of the non-stop,
And defining what cannot be defined.
Let me fall away from here,
Glide easily beyond the ordinary black and white,
To find a sparkle of a dewdrop,
Reflecting the specialness inside.
When I was done on my luck,
You pulled me through
When the world seemed against me
You were the one that cared.
When I was sad and crying,
You were that comforting touch.
You were my sunshine streaming through a cloudy window
You were my hope, my inspiration
You told me I was something, when I felt nothing
Like a firefighter you saves the life of a child
You saved mine and helped me through
For this I thank you
You were my sunshine streaming through a cloudy window
When I was younger I had dreams
just like any other child.
Dreaming of what the perfect parents
would be like.
Like my mother baking more cookies,
Or my father running and playing more catch,
Or having them not punish me,
Or at least trying to understand me;
And that I am not always at fault
(even if they think so).
And not dressing me up in funny clothes,
And not dragging me to places I did not want to go.
And always reminding me to say please and thank you.
But when I grew up and left for college,
out on my own finally,
I started to miss the nagging and
always correcting me.
And I started to realize and see my
parents through different eyes.
I now see they can't be anything
more than who they are.
And I understand now what I couldn't
That the parents who I always wanted
and dreamed of as a child,
I already had.
All I Really Wanted to Say
I can recite many lines from poems or songs of love about you and me.
I can tell you the numerous ways you make me feel good inside.
But all I really want to say is
I love you.
I can recall the good times we've had together.
I can mention then many times you've been there when I was down.
But all I really wanted to say is
I love you.
I don't really have to do all these but I want to tell you really
How much you mean to me and no other words can say this more than
I love you.
People's hands can show so much
The confusing, dark, overwhelming and
By putting words down on paper
With a pen
Blood is running, flying even talking
Through the veins in my hand
And I know I would see
If my hand were
Clean, refreshing water
Rolling off the hill's side
Cooling to the burning, aching flesh.
Clear blue skies surround us from above
The sun may be hot,
But the tall, shady trees
Will protect against scorching rays
A soft breezy mist sways off the river
Birds give a tropical concert
Everything is peaceful, quiet, content
For there is no work to be done
(It can wait another day)
No phones ringing off the hooks
(They must have been removed from the receiver)
It's just another lazy afternoon
I see the white clouds in the pale sky
To me they look like mountains to other
They twist into funny different shapes
The tall majestic pine trees grow taller
Before your eyes
The sun is setting behind these trees
Causing shadows to dance among the leaves
I dance among them with the animals as my friends
And as I lay down to rest
I feel the soft green grass as a blanket
I smell the flowers of spring and summer
I hear the running water following its path
I see an eagle flying high towards the sky
And soon the stars will be in my eye
The Triumph of the Phoenix
Rising across a clear blue sky
Soaring past soft white clouds
Looking down into mountains that burn
With an internal red flames
Adventuring beyond the blind somber
And reckless world
Steering away from the
Ashes of the dead
And into the light of renewal
Higher and higher
Until reaching the heavens
Always facing the sun
And letting the shadows fall far below
In centuries past
Man has struggled with
Man has exploited
For his own pleasure
From its natural habitat
For fun and games
Amusement for man
Hunted for no other
Purpose than to be
Man vs. animal
The struggle continues
The exploitation goes on
The killings never end.
When will it stop?
The thrill of the hunt
When will man learn
That he is the
Standing on the edge of a cliff
Dropping at the speed of light
Death claws open
Soaring high in the sky
Silence once again
Chalky blue smoke dream.
Alluring images materialize before half cracked eyes
Could it be the newborn cry of Romance or
Danger waking from an endless sleep?
Candle lit shadows flicker along speaking walls.
Biting voices that cut down the very marrow of life.
And yet guilt ridden shame prolongs that very essence.
Analyzing the maze stretched out before.
Finding the key that will bring home.
Beginning of rituals and fears
Ritual to fulfill
Fears to empty.
Emptiness boxes in the true self.
The true self that all must see.
Sight, visions, epiphanies.
Touched by the supernatural.
The supernatural essence of Being.
Being, belonging, the coming together.
Together as one.
One, wholeness, fulfillment of dreams.
Chalky blue smoked dreams.
My eyes open upon yet another fresh, orange morning
My lungs take in the sweet essence of life as
My arms stretch to embrace the new day
Time is stealing you away from my memories
I struggle so desperately to photograph
You were the one that first heard my sharp
Comforting newborn cry
And held me in your arms
Never wanting to let go but
Knowing you have to
I, too, have recently felt that sensation
A son born unto my unworthy existence
Precious and Pure
Eyes looking toward me
I was frighten to the very marrow of my life
I was twenty when I brought a helpless new breath
Into this world
You were seventeen
Three years difference but still a mirror image of each other
Mother and Daughter
Daughter and Son
Do you still think of me as that tiny
Twenty-six years have past
And I still think of you
We were never formally introduced
And yet share a bond that cannot
Each child raised by different hands, different faces
But stilled loved the same
You and I
Will never meet
Nor will my son and I
Satisfaction of erasing
My sweet images
You and my son are on my mind
And in my heart
Look the sun has awakened and a new day embodies the night...
Forever in My Heart
Smile when you think of me
That is how I want to be remembered
Know the sacrifices I have made
I have given you the best.
Forever in my heart will you be
My newborn son
Sleeping peacefully in your
Unaware of the decisions
Being made around you,
Innocent and Content.
You shall never know me
As I have known you
But we will never forget
We shall be forever in
Each other's hearts.
Smile when you think of me
For I smile when I
Think you of you my son
And you shall be
Forever in my heart.
Someone to Love
I look at pictures of you, my son
It’s truly the miracle of life
To believe that you and I
Were one for nine months
Nine months I was your mother
Nine month is a lifetime
For someone to love
Never once will I forget you
Never once will you not be
Never once will you not be
Someone to love
My Guardian Angel
I wish I had more time for our talks and walks but God needed you
I remember the times we had together, laughing and playing.
As a small child, I played with the gelatin molds and baking items in
That kitchen drawer held more treasures that only a child can imagine.
As a teen-ager, we rang in many New Years together.
It was a delightful feeling knowing that you were the first person I saw
in the upcoming year.
As a young adult, we broadened our horizons together and each of us
moved from our homes.
Talking on the phone we would commiserate together about cafeteria
Recently, you watched as I achieved my dreams with the reception of a
piece of paper.
It was a comfort to me, as I stepped into a brand new world, that you
were so proud of me and what I had become.
I will miss our Sunday chats over the phone, catching up on daily
activities and such.
But God needed you somewhere else.
Now you are my guardian angel looking over me from above.
St. Anthony can't ignore you now; our prayers must be answered.
Watch over me Gram and pray for me.
Pray that I become everything you hoped and dreamed I would become
Now I know why God took you from my mist, to be there when I call in
a very special way.
For God has made you my guardian angel forever more.
I often find myself
Wondering where I’d
If I had taken a
And has distance myself
From my life
I now lead
What if I had gone
With feeling buried
The ones I hide now
The emotions I must
For I know now
What I must do
Finding the truth
Across the distances
I have caused
What was once lost
What I once had
For the brief moment
We live, I will
I have put between
Breaking down the false barriers
Being able to be myself
Is all I want
Someone save the soul within
Pull out the
Find the creativity within
Hiding in the realms
I am not afraid
See what you can find
Dare to tread upon
The vastness of my soul.
Fires that burn bright
Against the pale moonlight
Rage burns within
Hearing the cry of a
Wolf beneath the sky
Refreshes my animalistic
The being that
Yearns to be free
Free of this self destruction
Free of this hate
Free of this sadness
Someone set me free
Slowly ever so softly
I do no know what I wish to do
My dreams are but a fading mist in the dying sunlight
Feeling helpless I must go on
No where to turn
No where to hide
Looking for a savior, looking for
A companion, a steady love
Gone is the bright light from
The light that gave me life
The light that made me who
Standing on the cutting edge of a cliff
Waves crashing against the jagged rocks below
Inching, inching, inching your way over
Closer, closer, closer you get
Feel the rock beneath your bare feet
Falling, falling, far below
The wind brushing against you hands
Warm and flowing
The sun sets
You see no more
Sadness consumes me and steals away my soul.
Night falls and embalms me with its madness.
I must find myself.
I must flee.
I am looking into a void that seems
To go on…
To go on
The eternity of my life.
Throw me a rope.
Nope, slipped through my hands.
Throw me a ladder.
Nope, just out of reach.
Send me a light.
Nope, only darkness.
Darkness of my soul.
Is there life?
Is there hope?
I am in search…
Is there love?
Is there peace?
A voice from no where yet
Where are you when I need you?
Sorrow has overwhelmed me causing my eyes to weep.
I cry to release the emotions that have swelled up inside.
I weep for your comforting hug and warm touch.
Night after night, I lay on my pillow and cry for you.
My cries penetrate the darkness of the night.
Calling out for help.
Calling out for you.
But you never answer.
Finally, as the sun wakes from sleep,
I am exhausted with the feelings that are struggling inside.
I fall asleep weeping softly and whispering out your name.
Stepping forward only to keep
Barbed wire binds my hands
Eyes shut tightly against the light
Gagged by incoherent words
Cards dealt Cards played
Hanged man appears
Mirror image of life
Light floods in
Distant time, distant past
Emerges to the present
Light embalms the soul
The truth is told
Messages are sent
Out of ashes
We will arise
Storm of power and greed
With blood-stained tears and
She rose above them
With bending and unyielding
She stands before them
Gold upon her brow
Steel power in her hand
Her burning eyes view the future
Four nations burn and forge
Under her rule
And emerge as
Do we have the power to
Children robbed of the
Rite of passage to adulthood
Lost through the break down of
Communications between generations
Searching for their own belonging
Unleashed powers in their hands
Powers of which they know nothing of
Violent storms emerge from within
Shed the blood of innocent lives
We must remember the
In order to set what is wrong
Come rain and cleanse my soul
Wash away all doubt beyond my control
Refresh and renew my tired body
Lightening clashes Thunder responds
I feel the cool drop running
Down my face
My skin sheds and peels the layers
Which have consumed me
With each flash of light and blast of sound
I stand taller
Refreshed and renewed
I can free myself again
With a clash of lightening my soul is born
Unto a world of destruction
Fading images blur and
Bind me to the fog soaked soil
Destined to relieve past mistakes
I strive to make this a better place
Repentance burns my crystal eyes
Reflecting skeletons for which I hide
I reach for redemption
But fall short of the task
Put forth before my unworthy
Standing alone earth beneath my feet
I feel the powers surround me
Chains that bind fade away
Release the final energies that
Soaring high I set my spirit
Free of troubles that combined
Free of worries that weigh me
Higher and higher to the
Streaming through the ages of time
Looking for that one true soul
Never doubt the essence of love
Along comes that one that has the power to
Subdue the ravage heart
Tranquility of mind
We have become
I look upon this world
With loving eyes
In hopes of changing the
Destruction around me
I teach by example
With Love and Peace
The children shall change our
The children shall change out
Prejudices and Racist attitudes
The children are our peacemakers
Our leaders for a better tomorrow
My hope is to inspire them
To become what is inside of them
Give them the tools to build
A better future
A better world
For us all
The Flight of the Cranes
Soaring great distances by day
Wings spread out to touch the sky
Such social beings are they
Who travel all this way
South is thy destiny
For winter stay
Till spring thy circle is complete
Oh come majestic birds
And rest thy weary wings
Tomorrow is but another day
Crimson crowed brows
And feathers of cloudy sky gray
Thousands come to stay
By night resting great wingspans of flight
Grass-knoll fields turned into
A sea of feathers and flight
The winds echoes with the
Songs of thousand
Precious Angel, beloved child
Sleeping peacefully in my arms
Such delicate fingers
Such tiny toes
Oh Little One
The world is a better place
Now that you have arrived
And I take great pride
In being your aunt
And in welcoming you
To heaven here on earth