Upon the Threshold of Dreams
Inscription:
For those who have dreamed a lifetime and back again.
For those who have has dreams shattered and hopes
Smashed, for those who never give up and those who have.
Looking out past the cloudy, musty pane,
Past the darkness of ignorance and bliss,
Beyond the printed word and criticism,
Into the coming of age.
Yearning to fly beyond the tar pits of time,
Breaking free of the painful limitations,
Striving for a newborn's cry,
Riding on the golden fingers of the sky.
Tired of the mechanical ruined world,
The gray print of
shadows playing along the wall,
The clicking and clanking of the non-stop,
And defining what cannot be defined.
Let me fall away from here,
Glide easily beyond the ordinary black and white,
To find a sparkle of a dewdrop,
Reflecting the specialness inside.
When I was done on my luck,
You pulled me through
When the world seemed against me
You were the one that cared.
When I was sad and crying,
You were that comforting touch.
You were my sunshine streaming through a cloudy window
You were my hope, my inspiration
You told me I was something, when I felt nothing
Like a firefighter you saves the life of a child
You saved mine and helped me through
For this I thank you
You were my sunshine streaming through a cloudy window
When I was younger I had dreams
just like any other child.
Dreaming of what the perfect parents
would be like.
Like my mother baking more cookies,
Or my father running and playing more
catch,
Or having them not punish me,
Or at least trying to understand me;
And that I am not always at fault
(even if they think so).
And not dressing me up in funny clothes,
And not dragging me to places I did not
want to go.
And always reminding me to say please and
thank you.
But when I grew up and left for college,
out on my own finally,
I started to miss the nagging and
always correcting me.
And I started to realize and see my
parents through different eyes.
I now see they can't be anything
more than who they are.
And I understand now what I couldn't
understand then,
That the parents who I always wanted
and dreamed of as a child,
I already had.
All I Really Wanted to Say
I can recite many lines from
poems or songs of love about you and me.
I can tell you the numerous ways
you make me feel good inside.
But all I really want to say is
I love you.
I can recall the good times
we've had together.
I can mention then many times
you've been there when I was down.
But all I really wanted to say
is
I love you.
I don't really have to do all
these but I want to tell you really
How much you mean to me and no
other words can say this more than
I love you.
Expressions
People's hands can show so much
The confusing, dark, overwhelming and
Bleak mind
By putting words down on paper
With a pen
Blood is running, flying even talking
Through the veins in my hand
And I know I would see
Stars
If my hand were
To break.
Clean,
refreshing water
Rolling off the hill's side
Cooling
to the burning, aching flesh.
Clear
blue skies surround us from above
The
sun may be hot,
But
the tall, shady trees
Will
protect against scorching rays
A
soft breezy mist sways off the river
Birds
give a tropical concert
Everything
is peaceful, quiet, content
For
there is no work to be done
(It
can wait another day)
No
phones ringing off the hooks
(They
must have been removed from the receiver)
It's
just another lazy afternoon
In
paradise.
I see the white clouds in the
pale sky
To me they look like mountains
to other
They twist into funny different
shapes
The tall majestic pine trees
grow taller
Before your eyes
The sun is setting behind these
trees
Causing shadows to dance among
the leaves
I dance among them with the
animals as my friends
And as I lay down to rest
I feel the soft green grass as a
blanket
I smell the flowers of spring
and summer
I hear the running water
following its path
I see an eagle flying high
towards the sky
And soon the stars will be in my
eye
The
Triumph of the Phoenix
Rising across a clear blue sky
Soaring past soft white clouds
Looking down into mountains that burn
With an internal red flames
Adventuring beyond the blind somber
And reckless world
Steering away from the
Ashes of the dead
And into the light of renewal
Climbing, climbing
Higher and higher
Until reaching the heavens
Always facing the sun
And letting the shadows fall far below
In centuries past
Man has struggled with
The animal
Man has exploited
Animals
For his own pleasure
Taken
The animal
From its natural habitat
For fun and games
Amusement for man
Hunted for no other
Purpose than to be
Killed.
Man vs. animal
The struggle continues
The exploitation goes on
The killings never end.
When will it stop?
Captivity
Experience
Entertainment
The thrill of the hunt
Poachers
Murder
When will man learn
That he is the
Beast
And not
The animals.
Standing
on the edge of a cliff
Sharp eyes
Scanning the
Sea
Diving
Dropping
at the speed of light
Death claws open
Dying fish
Soaring high in the sky
Silence once again
Chalky blue smoke dream.
Alluring images materialize
before half cracked eyes
Could it be the newborn cry of
Romance or
Danger waking from an endless
sleep?
Candle lit shadows flicker along
speaking walls.
Biting voices that cut down the
very marrow of life.
And yet guilt ridden shame
prolongs that very essence.
Analyzing the maze stretched out
before.
Finding the key that will bring
home.
Beginning of rituals and fears
Ritual to fulfill
Fears to empty.
Emptiness boxes in the true
self.
The true self that all must see.
Sight, visions, epiphanies.
Touched by the supernatural.
The supernatural essence of
Being.
Being, belonging, the coming
together.
Together as one.
One, wholeness, fulfillment of
dreams.
Chalky blue smoked dreams.
Mirror Image
My eyes open upon yet another
fresh, orange morning
My lungs take in the sweet
essence of life as
My arms stretch to embrace the
new day
Time is stealing you away from
my memories
I struggle so desperately to
photograph
You were the one that first
heard my sharp
Comforting newborn cry
And held me in your arms
Never wanting to let go but
Knowing you have to
I, too, have recently felt that
sensation
A son born unto my unworthy
existence
Precious and Pure
Eyes looking toward me
For reassurance
For comfort
For nourishment
I was frighten to the very
marrow of my life
I was twenty when I brought a
helpless new breath
Into this world
You were seventeen
Three years difference but still
a mirror image of each other
Mother and Daughter
Daughter and Son
Do you still think of me as that
tiny
Newborn baby?
Twenty-six years have past
And I still think of you
We were never formally
introduced
And yet share a bond that cannot
Be broken
Each child raised by different
hands, different faces
But stilled loved the same
You and I
Will never meet
Nor will my son and I
Satisfaction of erasing
My sweet images
You and my son are on my mind
And in my heart
Look the sun has awakened and a
new day embodies the night...
Forever in My Heart
Smile when you think of me
That is how I want to be
remembered
Know the sacrifices I have made
In that
I have given you the best.
Forever in my heart will you be
My newborn son
Sleeping peacefully in your
Mother's arms
Unaware of the decisions
Being made around you,
Innocent and Content.
You shall never know me
As I have known you
But we will never forget
Each other
We shall be forever in
Each other's hearts.
Smile when you think of me
For I smile when I
Think you of you my son
And you shall be
Forever in my heart.
Someone
to Love
I
look at pictures of you, my son
It’s
truly the miracle of life
To
believe that you and I
Were
one for nine months
Nine
months I was your mother
Nine
month is a lifetime
For
someone to love
Never
once will I forget you
My
Son
Never
once will you not be
My
Son
Never
once will you not be
Someone
to love
My Guardian Angel
I wish I had more time for our talks and walks but God needed you
somewhere else.
I remember the times we had together, laughing and playing.
As a small child, I played with the gelatin molds and baking
items in
bottom drawer.
That kitchen drawer held more treasures that only a child can
imagine.
As a teen-ager, we rang in many New Years together.
It was a delightful feeling knowing that you were the first
person I saw
in the upcoming year.
As a young adult, we broadened our horizons together and each of
us
moved from our homes.
Talking on the phone we would commiserate together about
cafeteria
food.
Recently, you watched as I achieved my dreams with the reception
of a
piece of paper.
It was a comfort to me, as I stepped into a brand new world, that
you
were so proud of me and what I had become.
I will miss our Sunday chats over the phone, catching up on daily
activities and such.
But God needed you somewhere else.
Now you are my guardian angel looking over me from above.
St. Anthony can't ignore you now; our prayers must be answered.
Watch over me Gram and pray for me.
Pray that I become everything you hoped and dreamed I would
become
and more.
Now I know why God took you from my mist, to be there when I call
in
a very special way.
For God has made you my guardian angel forever more.
Distance
I often find myself
Wondering where I’d
Be
If I had taken a
Different path
And has distance myself
From my life
I now lead
What if I had gone
With feeling buried
Inside
The ones I hide now
The emotions I must
Control
For I know now
What I must do
Finding the truth
Across the distances
I have caused
Bring together
What was once lost
What I once had
For the brief moment
We live, I will
I will
Always regret
The Distance
I have put between
Me
And
You.
Falling
Apart
Breaking
down the false barriers
Fading
light
Being
able to be myself
Is
all I want
Someone
save the soul within
Pull
out the
Sparkling
fame
Find
the creativity within
Hiding
in the realms
Of
darkness
I
am not afraid
See
what you can find
Dare
to tread upon
The
vastness of my soul.
Continuing
Fires that burn bright
Against the pale moonlight
Losing direction
Losing faith
Starting over
Starting new
Falling below
Can’t continue
Rage burns within
My heart
Hearing the cry of a
Wolf beneath the sky
Refreshes my animalistic
Being
The being that
Yearns to be free
Free of this self destruction
Free of this hate
Free of this sadness
Someone set me free
Slowly
ever so softly
I
do no know what I wish to do
My
dreams are but a fading mist in the dying sunlight
Feeling
helpless I must go on
But
can’t
No
where to turn
No
where to hide
Looking
for a savior, looking for
A
companion, a steady love
Going
forth
Fading
back
Gone
is the bright light from
My
eyes
The
light that gave me life
The
light that made me who
I
am
Gone
Standing
on the cutting edge of a cliff
Waves
crashing against the jagged rocks below
Inching,
inching, inching your way over
Closer,
closer, closer you get
Feel
the rock beneath your bare feet
Letting
go
Falling,
falling, far below
The
wind brushing against you hands
Warm
and flowing
The
sun sets
Darkness
comes
You
see no more
Sadness consumes me and steals
away my soul.
Night falls and embalms me with
its madness.
I must find myself.
I must flee.
I am looking into a void that
seems
That seems…
To go on…
To go on
For
Eternity.
The eternity of my life.
Throw me a rope.
Nope, slipped through my hands.
Throw me a ladder.
Nope, just out of reach.
Send me a light.
Nope, only darkness.
Darkness
Darkness of my soul.
Is there life?
Is there hope?
I am in search…
Is there love?
Is there peace?
A voice from no where yet
Everywhere
Says softly…
Softly…
Yes.
Alone
Where are you when I need you?
Sorrow has overwhelmed me
causing my eyes to weep.
I cry to release the emotions
that have swelled up inside.
I weep for your comforting hug
and warm touch.
Night after night, I lay on my
pillow and cry for you.
My cries penetrate the darkness
of the night.
Calling out for help.
Calling out for you.
But you never answer.
Finally, as the sun wakes from
sleep,
I am exhausted with the feelings
that are struggling inside.
I fall asleep weeping softly and
whispering out your name.
Stepping forward only to keep
Looking back
Barbed wire binds my hands
Eyes shut tightly against the
light
Gagged by incoherent words
Cards dealt Cards played
Hanged man appears
Mirror image of life
Glass shatters
Pieces fall
Chains break
Light floods in
Distant
time, distant past
Emerges
to the present
Light
embalms the soul
Searching
ends
The
truth is told
Messages
are sent
Warnings
heeded
Out
of ashes
We
will arise
Storm of power and greed
With blood-stained tears and
Callused hands
She rose above them
With bending and unyielding
Faith
She stands before them
Gold upon her brow
Steel power in her hand
Her burning eyes view the future
Four nations burn and forge
Under her rule
And emerge as
ONE
Surrealism
Do we have the power to
Kill?
Children robbed of the
Rite of passage to adulthood
Lost through the break down of
Communications between
generations
Searching for their own
belonging
Unleashed powers in their hands
Powers of which they know
nothing of
Violent storms emerge from
within
Innocent Hands
Shed the blood of innocent lives
We must remember the
Forgotten realms
Forgotten rites
In order to set what is wrong
Right
Come
rain and cleanse my soul
Wash
away all doubt beyond my control
Refresh
and renew my tired body
Lightening
clashes Thunder responds
I
feel the cool drop running
Down
my face
My
skin sheds and peels the layers
Which
have consumed me
With
each flash of light and blast of sound
I
stand taller
Refreshed
and renewed
I
can free myself again
Focus
With a clash of lightening my
soul is born
Unto a world of destruction
Fading images blur and
Bind me to the fog soaked soil
Destined to relieve past
mistakes
I strive to make this a better
place
Repentance burns my crystal eyes
Reflecting skeletons for which I
hide
I reach for redemption
But fall short of the task
Put forth before my unworthy
Soul
Begin again
I must
Standing alone earth beneath my
feet
I feel the powers surround me
Chains that bind fade away
Release the final energies that
Be
Soaring high I set my spirit
Free
Free of troubles that combined
Free of worries that weigh me
Down
Higher and higher to the
Ultimate realm
I am
I am
Free
Streaming
through the ages of time
Looking
for that one true soul
Never
doubt the essence of love
Along
comes that one that has the power to
Subdue
the ravage heart
Tranquility
of mind
Body
heals
Souls
unite
We
have become
ONE
My Mission
I look upon this world
With loving eyes
In hopes of changing the
Destruction around me
I teach by example
With Love and Peace
The children shall change our
Inadequate ways
The children shall change out
Prejudices and Racist attitudes
The children are our peacemakers
Our leaders for a better
tomorrow
My hope is to inspire them
To become what is inside of them
Give them the tools to build
A better future
A better world
For us all
The
Flight of the Cranes
Soaring
great distances by day
Wings
spread out to touch the sky
Such
social beings are they
Who
travel all this way
South
is thy destiny
For
winter stay
Till
spring thy circle is complete
Oh
come majestic birds
And
rest thy weary wings
Tomorrow
is but another day
Crimson crowed brows
And feathers of cloudy sky gray
Thousands come to stay
By night resting great wingspans of flight
Grass-knoll fields turned into
A sea of feathers and flight
The winds echoes with the
Songs of thousand
Little Angel
Precious Angel, beloved child
Sleeping peacefully in my arms
Such delicate fingers
1,2,3,4,5
Such tiny toes
1,2,3,4,5
Oh Little One
The world is a better place
Now that you have arrived
And I take great pride
In being your aunt
And in welcoming you
Little Angel
To heaven here on earth